Widow Life
I have already lost count of how many days I have been a widow. I only know that many of them are long and lonely.
But Michael and I gave it all to God from the beginning for His glory. Whatever glorified him the most is what we wanted, too. Our theme song was One More Day by Diamond Rio. Every morning, we woke up and thanked God for one more day together. He gave us 303 more days. And I was given the privilege of walking Michael Home. We had to go our separate ways then, but oh, what a joy those hours were. I shall treasure them always.
God has given us 12,771 days since December 31, 1989. – the day we married. I am grateful for every single one of those days. I miss Michael very much. But I know where he is. I know he is no longer in pain. I know that all the sorrows of his life are lifted from him and I would not ask him to give that up. Besides, I promised I to keep walking the Christian life until God calls me home. He wrote this note to me sometime in our marriage. it will always be a reminder to keep living for Jesus. I found it while cleaning out one of my bedside drawers.
When I arrive at Home, he can walk me around heaven. Show me the sights and we can worship at the feet of Jesus together. What A Day that will be!
Numbering My Days
“So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom”
Psalm 90:12,
I had been counting my widow days on Facebook – how many days since he passed away. I no longer do that. It dawned on me one morning, what days I should be numbering. The greatest number is not the days of my sorrow, nor is it even the days we had together, though I am grateful for them.
The days I want to number are the days since Jesus saved me and that I have been faithfully serving him as Lord… 19,226 days. (since July 27, 1972)
Now that is something to praise God about. May I continue being faithful to God alone in this journey, no matter what befalls.
He is a good, good father.
-Mandy
Pastor’s Wife (retired) & Chronic Pain Warrior blogs about how to make it through anything by relating her own life experiences to her writing. She is passionate about her love for the Lord and desires to spread that passion to others. She has a great desire to encourage women who are following behind her.
Beautiful words, dear Mandy. What a precious gift to count the number of our days of walking with Jesus. And only God could have planned for those dear notes to be such a blessing for you. Hugs and prayers for you.