Growing up, we enjoyed many a good game of hide and seek. You see, on a dairy farm, there were myriads of hiding places.
Behind the big oak tree.
Around the bulk tank.
Up in the hay loft. (My brother built the most awesome tunnels).
One could hide all day long and never hide in the same place twice.
Even when we weren’t playing, we would be thinking and looking for that ultimate hiding place for our next game.
It was always great innocent fun.
But sometimes we hide for other reasons.
We hide because of our shame.
We hide because we have done something wrong and we dread exposure.
Or maybe we hide because we have experienced some awful and we want the memories to go away.
It’s nothing new….
- Adam and Eve hid in the garden after their sin.
- Soon-to-be king, Saul, hid in the baggage because he felt insecure, unworthy of such an honor.
Satan does that to us.
He is the ultimate liar.
He tells us lies that we are unworthy of love … unworthy of recognition .. just plain unworthy.
But it is all a lie.
I struggled for years fighting the lie of unworthiness.
Even with a name that means worthy of love, I could not accept love outside of my family. I could make a list of my good traits and all my talents but still, in my mind, I was unworthy. The truth is, I actually pushed love away when it came my way because I could not accept it.
Because I felt unworthy, I found myself hiding behind my extra weight and blaming it for keeping me from love. But it was really only a lie from Satan himself. He knew that I could love others and show them the love of Jesus. Satan wanted to stop me from serving the Lord. He didn’t want me to expose the lies that he had tricked so many into believing.
It took years of fighting it and love and support from friends and family, but slowly and surely I learned that God loves me immensely just as I am. I don’t have to fix things or do something special.
He just loves me. Oh, how He loves me.
“I want to reach through this screen,
grab you by the shoulders,
and tell you how much God loves you.”
-Christine Caine, Unashamed
I felt these words ring true. Reminded of times I have tried to convince young girls that they are worthy of love. I have been there but I have never known how to help others fight the fight that I fought. (And still do at times.)
I love the reminder from the Psalms of how wonderful you and I really are.
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
Christine reminded us of the prodigal son and his father, who loved his son so much. He kept looking for him to return home. And as soon as he saw his son coming down the road, he ran to him and embraced him.
God is waiting and watching for you to come home. He is waiting for you to give up the shame and run to Him. He Our Father is our ultimate hiding place.
God promises to take away any guilt and cover any shame and throw them “as far as the east is from the west”.
So go for it.
Stop running to food or drugs or sleep.
Run to God and He will run to you.
I know that He will because He ran to me too!
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Writer/Speaker sharing about how to make it through anything. I married a pastor with two boys who just lost their mom, I homeschooled my own children, led children’s ministries and women’s ministries in the church, and founded and led a homeschool support group. Had to give up much of this due to chronic pain. Like the Insurance, I know a lot because I’ve seen a lot.